Friday, February 5, 2010 Y 8:04 AM
School's been going quite smoothly. But there is one thing. There is a girl in my class. I'm not going to mention her name. I have a feeling she hates the sight of me. She picks on me a lot, well, that's how I feel. And she's pretty bossy to me. I don't really like her. And then during physical education lessons, a lot of things happened between her and me. She was like getting mad because I can't play badminton very well. Sometimes, it's not that you don't know the rules, you just need a minute to think and you're confused. But no, she starts nagging and scolding me. Quite a few people in my class doesn't like that attitude of hers, but they don't show it and they just let her push it. She may not know it, but it is. They told me. And then there it is, like a clique of pupils who get together cause they don't like her either, and they have this piece of paper for us to express our feelings. Kinda like a club. So, I decided to join and write down something, like how do I feel when she treats and talks to me like that. I wrote down the word 'mean' cause I felt she's been being mean to me. Maybe she doesn't know it, but I know it. When she saw me writing down, she assumed I was ganging up on her and trying to bully her or something, and she went to complain to one of my friends. I'm not trying to be mean... I'm just trying to vent my feelings. Like the other people who wrote down, cause some of them are because she's violent and hits them... Or stuff. But I just wanted to write down how hurt I felt when she looked down on me just because I'm not good at badminton. My other friend wanted to play with me, and I said okay. Then, she said : " TRY to play with her. Just try. If you don't want, it's okay." I felt so hurt. It's like she's saying that I can't even hit the shuttlecock one time. I felt that she was belittling me. She didn't have to put it that way. So, I don't see what's wrong with writing down one little word, 'mean' . I just felt very hurt and unhappy, like the other people who wrote down on the paper. Now, she makes it look like I'm a bad guy, ganging up and bullying her. It's not fair. How she made remarks about me, bossing me around. Not fair at all. And I think, she's going to tell everybody that I'm a big mean girl who gangs up on people and everyone is going to hate me on Monday. I just wrote 'mean'. What's wrong with wanting to vent my feelings with one little word?
